End

The end is near
Reach It without fear
Dropping all enmity and pity
Cross the ocean of duality
None other than the Self
Can be of any help
In the within and without
Have not even an iota of doubt
Else the truth is near, yet so far
Its farther than the farthest star!

Conglomeration of thought

I was pondering over a thought, nothing specific of course. Then it occurred to me that a thought is not an individual thought, but a conglomeration of thoughts even in that single instance of a thought! Its like the effect being within the cause.

When a thought leads into another, and yet another, endlessly... its because the resulting thought is held within the source thought itself! In short, I being the source thought of all, it includes every thought that can occur ever! So if one looks up any thought and starts analyzing it, one shall see that such an aggregation can be loosened into many a bit as leading unto other thoughts. When all such loosening happens without following any resultant thought, it leads to the stilling of mind. That is effective meditation.

Killing the mind

They say when the Lord kills someone himself, he has no rebirth. Such is the teaching depicted in the Mahabharata too. If one sees the Lord as the consciousness (thats the Self in all) and the mind (that makes up the creation) as that someone, the learning still holds good. The entire path of spirituality is to end in manonAsha, with the consciousness killing the mind, thereby liberating one into that infinite brahmaN.

Celibacy and spirituality

Earlier, I've thought and written much on the topic-- mostly on brahmacharya, thats means a lot more than celibacy-- but one of the lectures of Sw. Atmaswarupananda on Religious Consciousness gave me some more food for thought on why non-celibacy could lead one away from spirituality.

When a person even considers a physical relation with another person, s/he is objectifying the other person. Mark the word *objectifying*. Considering a person apart from oneself and desiring towards such an object creates duality. (This duality spreads further into multiplicity). The object identified so, creates a subject, ties up the subject to the body and then on its just tying up more knots. It also is one of the deepest knots to untie... a deeper impression is created thats too difficult to remove.

... And in spirituality, its not more the merrier, but travelling with a lighter baggage is the key!

Karma Yoga

We have a Karma Yoga (KY) class here thats in the evening for around 45m. I was a little unsettled during it since my understanding of KY doesn't go well with what they have here. I was doing the job for the sake of the class and given an option, I would lovingly have skipped it. There were multiple reasons for it. The first one that I mentioned was my understanding: any job done without expectation of any result as Gita says makes up KY; any association to the work done has to be given up; it has to be done wholeheartedly too; with a bhakti-bhaava... and so on. I did not have any of this, since I was thinking of my purpose of jnaana-yoga while doing KY and then bhakti didn't arise every evening. Also my health gave way after a hectic day during KY.

Thus I felt that I was being unjust to the course and talked about quitting it. After some discussions with the respective authorities, they gave exempted me from this so-called KY. However, I shifted to doing other things out here like serving in the canteen, data entry jobs or library work instead. (I also got exemption from the bodily-focussed yogAsanA class and took to long walks instead that gives me time to continue my manana on vedAntic learnings). So much for KY here at YVFA. Now for some stories about what KY is:

The first story goes about Swami Sivananda who used to serve people endlessly with his catchy tagline: Be Good, Do Good. Swami Chidananda went on to say this later on: Do as much good to as many people in as many ways as is possible. Sw. Sivananda was Dr. Kuppuswami in his purvAshrama and so he used to give medication to many a people who used to walk to Kedarnath-Badrinath. Once, one of the persons on such yatra left his medication behind and Sw. Sivananda followed to trace him in order to give the same. At each chatti, having missed the person, he caught up pace, eventually running, in order to catch up and finally handing over the medication advicing prescription and walking back from 7kms upwards of Rishikesh!

The second story, interestingly, was narrated to us by Sw. Radhakrishnanandaji during his special class on dharma. A sannyAsi starts walking from an ashram, after having collected food. Towards the afternoon having come 10 miles into the forest, he decides to have lunch. His lunch is, however, covered up with ants! The sannyAsi ponders so: "If I leave the ants here in the forest with my lunch, they'll have the food now, but they'll starve for want of more later". So, he goes back 10 miles and leaves the ants at the ashram so that they get their share of food!

How many of us would have left the food and the ants to themselves in the forest, let alone walk back?!!! So, sevA in itself seems like a big word to me; we can hardly do any service to anyone with such comparison!