This is a blog by a person who doesn't know who he is, what he does, why he does what he does, or what he doesn't do and why he doesn't do what he doesn't do! I think you get the drift... if you still decide to stay on, welcome; else, so long. :) Thanks!
Thoughts 64
First verses
The brahma sutra says:
janmAdasya yataH,
--that from which all this is born!
The brahma samhita says:
ishwaraH paramaH krishNA sachidAnanda vigraH
anAdirAdiH govindaH sarva kAraNa kAraNam
--that ishwaraH (herein mentioned Krishna, but all the same) who is sat-chit-Ananda is the (causeless) cause of all causes!
The gaNapati atharvashirSopanishad says:
namaH te gaNapataye (I'm thankful to Mahabaleshwar-ji for pointing this out instead of the one that follows).
--revered salulations to thou, Ganapati
There's a lot of meaning in such a seemingly simple salutation. The te is rightly understood as the tvam pada of tattvamasi. And then, gaNapati is seen the tat as well as the tvam!
or the following verse...
tvameva pratyakshaM tattvamasi
--thou art that shruti mahAvAkya thou art that! So very beautifully
put. Ah, the bliss! AnandohaM AnandohaM AnandaM brahmAnandaM
gurorarpaNamastu
9, 9 and 18 more!
Oct 3, 2005: I spoke to my manager of my leaving my job. Over discussions, potential replacement interviews, stretching issues, new project modules, negotiations, ping-pongs, the final day saw 9 months more. (Its a different story that I took a vacation in the 9th month to push it a month further from exit).
Aug 10, 2006: This day saw a beginning of another gestation that delivered simple living with unplanned plans, do-nothing, be-nothing attitude.Towards the end of these 9 months, a breakthrough getaway is seen.
May 10, 2007: As I see, its a disconnected life, yet a connected one. Its time to shatter superficial faiths and bring deeper beliefs alive. Those deeper beliefs had, earlier, announced themselves in unacceptable terms to others, portrayed superficially, taking expensive time (18 months!!!), effort, monies, patience and all that mundane worldly stuff. Its time to recover those, boldly, for the truth as I see it. As my favorite manager used to say, have a one point agenda! Its still a formation of unattached attachment. I don't know if I can be with all older ties with new ones shaping up. I might relax norms and care less for anything else than the focus that is called for, however hurting it may seem!
Finally, I'd like to close with some shloka-s that are left to interpretation beyond my mention of thought 52 taken as grace:
duHsangaM ca parityajya pApakarma parityajet |
cittachinhamidaM yasya tasya dIkshA vidhIyate ||
cittatyAganiyuktashca krodhagarvavivarjitaH |
dvaitabhAvaparityAgI tasya dIkshA vidhIyate ||
etallakshaNaM saMyuktaM sarvabhUtahiteratam |
nirmalaM jIvitaM yasya tasya dIkshA vidhIyate ||
Sounding negative!
The wars around the world, unethical fight for industry leadership, hatred amongst families, within the family, religious intolerance, meaningless friendships, backstabbing, environmental carelessness, short sightedness, ignorance about anything that doesn't directly affect us, etc, are some of the things that detail the same.
We've become more mean and the attitude problem that we live with and how easily we cook up a bunch of lies, for any trivial thing, has degraded our standards of morality to a drastic low... to a point of no recovery.
If we try to separate ourselves from such a society around us, we end up fighting with everyone, unable to stand anything that even closely resembles odds, frustration building every moment of our mortal existence....
As always, hideouts of silence are the only solution for us then!
Thoughts 61-62
62: Liking something and being good at it are two disparate things!
Thoughts 57-59
58: Lying is a sin, they say; but they forget that reality of the world is a first lie! Of course, the zeroeth lie is One's individuality.
59: When the goal is dear, the path is clear. But if the path is dear, the goal remains mere.